Just a quick update on Alex.......he'll be going in for a PET scan on Wednesday (10/16) before his annual checkup with both the cardiology and oncology departments at Stanford. We're starting the prep for the PET a little early (yes, I go overboard on this 😃 ) wanting the best results possible. No sugar, carbs, coffee, starches......heavy on the protein and veges; taking it easy, no strenuous physical activity. We still have the 'brown fat' issue hanging over our heads from his last PET scan, so this mama is a bit anxious.
I've just begun getting my footing again, not seeing God as the bad guy; rehearsing to myself that He loves us, loves my children, that there is a bigger picture at work in taking Ian so early and I keep hoping and asking that we won't be flung over the abyss again.
After we get back from Stanford it will be Ian's birthday.....so we'll do what we normally do (using the word 'normal' is not lost on me). We'll take flowers out to Ballard and spend the day remembering our boy, who we miss so much. Ian would have been 27 this year......we can only imagine what he would be doing and what he would have accomplished. But we follow his friends on Facebook (with their permission) or run into them around town and see them getting married, having jobs and families of their own and we dream.
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